She's GONE!!!!

Baby is nowhere to be found. I am SICK to my stomach. Aunt Kelly, Payton, and I ran numerous errands today including Lowes, Michaels, Joann's, Wally's Party Factory, & Target. I may be wrong, but I think she had her at Target last. I went to go and start a load of laundry, I was going to wash her baby and blanket because she had been carrying them everywhere. I found blankey, well BABY was nowhere to be found. I have searched everywhere, I mean everywhere. I begin to tear up. I mention to Payton that I can't find baby, all the while she isn't too concerned she keeps saying "Oh she is somewhere"NO SHE ISN"T. SHE IS GONE. Maybe I am being dramatic but this is really upsetting to me. I guess because this is something she has been attached to for a LONG time. I send Phil a text, try to call him... no answer. He calls me back about 10 minutes later and I start to ball cry like a little baby. I can't really share with you why I am so emotional about it, but I am. Just hit me, along with other emotions.

Anyways, still waiting for Phil to get home. I remember when Parker lost Lovey. It was very devastating to them as well. They searched on Ebay and were able to get Parker a new Lovey just like her old one. Well- I searched... first search nothing came up. Went back searched again and FIRST ONE ON THE LIST was this

SO.... I ordered it.... $29.99 later... I have now ordered a new one. I am anxious to see how Payton acts come bedtime in the next hour. Says that I won't receive it till the end of January or first of February. UGH. I hate this. And it won't be the same.

Ok, I am done venting. Will let yall know how tonight goes!!!!!